I’m getting tired. My body is exhausted and I just need a huge break from everything. Can I just take a trip to Seattle please? Work is beginning to bring me down and assignments for class is overwhelm me. My feelings are mixed. I am unable to sleep at night anymore. But during the day, I’m dead asleep. This is a waste of time that I need to be working on school stuff. I just need to run away.
First Day Of My Life- Bright Eyes(dumb girl stuffs)
This is the first day of my life I swear I was born right in the doorway I went out in the rain suddenly everything changed They’re spreading blankets on the beach
Yours is the first face that I saw I think I was blind before I met you Now I don’t know where I am I don’t know where I’ve been But I know where I want to go
And so I thought I’d let you know That these things take forever I especially am slow But I realize that I need you And I wondered if I could come home
Remember the time you drove all night Just to meet me in the morning And I thought it was strange you said everything changed You felt as if you’d just woke up And you said “this is the first day of my life I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you And I’d probably be happy”
So if you want to be with me With these things there’s no telling We just have to wait and see But I’d rather be working for a paycheck Than waiting to win the lottery Besides maybe this time is different I mean I really think you like me
Ten things I’d like to say to certain people (but don’t say their name):
1. I’ve grown to really love you, I look up to you and i care about you more then you think I do. I honestly couldn’t live with myself if i didn’t have you in my life. I honestly never want to leave, i never want to wonder off too far because i never want to leave you alone. You have done so much for me and put up with all my nonsense. I know you love me even if you dont tell me, i love you too.
2. Your a great man, you have grown to tell me all your stories. You always want the best for me, even though it may not be what you want. You always wanted me to be happy and i am grateful for that. I love you, Your always encouraging, your the best anyone could ever have.
3. Its been 5 almost 6 long years, and still strong, we have both changed so much though. we’ve been through many battles and left with plenty of scars. but here we are stronger than ever. ready to face the world as it comes to us. Your the only person that could truly put up with me and i am the only person that can truly put up with you. Honestly, I’m glad this is so, because other wise i would have no one.
4. I like you a lot, but you scare the shit out of me. I feel intimidated by your presents. You are too passive aggressive sometimes. I want to be with you. I would really like us to last, but ive built a wall, and not very many people are willing to knock it down, i sometimes wonder if you are willing to. Im not sure if we know each other enough. and im not sure if where ready to fight battles together.
5. I know you’ve been through a lot, I know you suffer. I know how hard things are for you. I really want to be there for you, but you’ve build such a strong wall to keep everyone out. You scare them away by being a dick so that they cant choose weather or not they like you, they are forced to dislike you. I really do care about you, and even when your a dick to me, i still miss you.
6. I miss who you use to be, after you dated that one girl, you’ve changed so much and all you do is smoke a lot of pot and party. I know your better than that, i know you have so much potential that is just waiting to burst from your body.
7. Even though I never see you, I still consider you one of my good friends. You worry me though, I know your smart and i know you can be great, but other people don’t see that. You worry me sometimes, ever since your mom died, you haven’t been the same. In a few days it will be the third year that you have been without it, and honestly i know deep inside you miss her, you just don’t know how to talk about it. the only time i’ve heard you talk about her was when your high. i can tell your hurting.
8. Im glad i met you, Your extremely nice and extremely attractive. Im glad that your a friend of mine, and a part of me wishes it could be more, but i know better than that. i don’t even think you feel the same about me, all in all, im glad i see you as often as i do, even if it is under certain circumstances. You should stop pretending to be mean to me, it really does hurt my feelings some times.
9. I wish you loved her like i do, i wish you understood. I love you but i need you to grow up. You are too immature. You wont take my conversations seriously. i just want you to understand, your not on top of the world.
10. Since i was a little girl you’ve watched over me, and now that your gone i miss you being around, I wish you still lived with us. I didn’t understand it before but i understand now, that it was all out of love. i know you wont be around for much longer, i just wish you would stay with us instead.
Nine things about myself: 1. I am a lot happier when its cold out, otherwise I’m grumpy in the heat. 2. I am a photographer, collecting cameras is kind of my thing. 3. I am my own worse enemy, I will never be good enough for myself. 4. I have an extremely low self esteem, which makes me self conscious 5. I’m a pirate, sorry media, but your not worth my money. 6. I am a night owl with tired eyes, meaning I cant sleep at night, and I’m always tired 7. I am obsessed with owls. 8. I Love harry potter anything. 9. I’m addicted to starbucks.
Eight ways to win my heart: 1. Tell my how you feel about anything and everything. 2. Be honest, even if it will hurt. 3. Be willing to break down my walls. 4. Good music. 5. Lots and lots of cuddles. 6. Learn my spot when you give me back rubs. 7. Accept me for who I am because I’m far from perfect. 8. Know me, like i would want to know you.
Seven things that cross my mind a lot: 1. Food. 2. Sleep. 3. My life; past, present and future 4. My fears. 5. Photography ideas 6. Family 7. Friends
Six things I do before I fall asleep: 1. Shower 2. Text someone 3. Turn on music, movie, or tv 4. Get comfortable 5. Eat 6. Think
Five of your favorites: 1. Sleep 2. Green 3. Good Company 4. Seattle 5. Rain
Four things I’m wearing right now: 1. Leggings. 2. Glasses. 3. Blouse. 4. Man Cardigan.
Three songs that I listen to often: 1. 3685 - The Spill Canvas 2. Nineteen - Tegan and Sara 3. Title and Registration - Death Cab for Cutie
Two things I want to do before I die: 1. Find Happiness 2. Find Love
One confession: 1. I have suffered from depression for almost half of my life, and I’m still fighting to get better. The hardest part is that I feel so alone during the process. I feel like I’m getting use to it, and that scares the shit out of me. I don’t want to get use to it and live with it for the rest of my life. I want to recover it and finally be truly happy.
One day long ago, three brothers decided to go out travelling the world together. At twilight they came to a treacherous river that had taken the lives of many people who had attempted to cross to the other side. The Peverells, being expert wizards, casually whipped out their wands and created…