Ryan’s a jerk. So remember me a week or two ago. We’re still on a stupid break none break or whatever. Today I asked him what is going on in our relationship and he’s was just angry and passive aggressive. I asked and then he said eventually then I said eventually when? Today, tomorrow, next month, next year. He was angry and said next month. So now I’m just in the Grey zone untill then apparently. I don’t get it. I don’t get why I have to be treated this way. I’ve always waited around for him. For him to be done with his video games or card games. Now I have to wait to see if he’s ready to break up or not. Maybe if he’s not breaking up with me this month he will next month. It doesn’t matter about my feelings or whatever. You can just continue with life while mine stops to wait for you.
I’m a good girlfriend I swear I am. I don’t think it’s okay. It’s not okay that I’m speaking my night crying while your playing your stupid video game.
When your at a concert and you close your eyes and move with the music and you just get tears in your eyes from all the joy and you just feel like you’ve been touched by music muses. Its a good feeling.