Hey everyone. I haven’t been able to post anything because I have been busy with my mom. She is still staying with me and she likes watching around china town. I like being able to just relax. So anyways. I won’t have Internet till the 30th. In which case I need to wait for the modem and also install it all. Fuck. Anyways I won’t be able to post pictures as conveniently as usually. And that also means for cats meow too.
My goodbyes were short, I didn’t get to see many people but I will be going home every once in a while, which is good. I was going to spend my first night with my friend Zach, he was suppose to visit and hang out with me, but instead my mom is here and she help me set everything up and she also is helping me make dinner. Well actually she is making the dinner, but shes showing me the ropes I suppose. I am extremely hungry right now, and dinner smells pretty good evan though it isn’t much. I think my mom is confused because shes use to cooking for a family and tonight shes cooking for just two. She’s not sure what to make and how much of it is necessary. Its silly.
Once I was moved in my mom got stopped by a guy that lives on our floor. I think he’s a friendly guy that doesn’t know when to stop talking, harmless but annoying. He keeps talking to her and saying how she is nice and how some people in the building aren’t very nice. We will see about that. He eventually he knocked on the door to chit chat some more. I hope this isn’t a daily thing because I am not much of a talker especially if it’s in Chinese. Thats not okay. That and I find it creepy that he can just show up in front of my door whenever…
Few minutes later I am back from eating and washing dishes. Because dishes are usually dirty I suppose I will have to wash super dirty dishes in the general use kitchen. Its just weird because theres a lady cooking her food and smoking a cigarette and I am just washing my dishes super awkwardly. This isn’t my crowed. However I dig the smoking inside thing. I have a feeling I might end up smoking all the time. I hope it doesn’t come to that. I have the habit but I don’t want it to be a habitual thing. Although this place makes it easy to do so. I also don’t know about you, but there are no smoking signs all over the building but people smoke inside of it anyways. Hm, weird. No one seems to be regulating. Oh well.
Internet is very limited right now. I am currently stealing L&L’s wifi and it isn’t very good seeing as I am 4 stories from the actual hot spot. So i probably wont be posting as much as I would like. I would like to say that I’ll have internet soon, but I am relying on my cousin and sometimes he isn’t the best person to rely on.
On the other note, I have been doing Insanity for a week and a half, and I don’t know if I should do it here. My legs are tired and I am quite pooped. Also my mom is in the studio and I have a tattoo she doesn’t know about. Working would mean putting my hair to get it out of my face as well as reveling the deathly hallows on the back of my neck.
As of tomorrow I will be living in San Francisco. I am really excited, but even more than that I am scared. I am sad. I don’t want to leave, I feel homesick already. If you know me, you know I am extremely attached to everything. I can’t get go of an old Invitation from first grade. I cant let go of christmas cards from my aunt. I can’t get rid of old cloths that don’t fit. So when it comes to letting go of everything I know. I am finding it realy hard to accept the fact that everything will be changing and I wont have a thing. My beloved parents and sister will be gone. I wont be able to see my significant other for a while. I will not be able to see my friends. I cant bring my cat. I feel like I shouldn’t bring my childhood bed spread because it is suppose to be me, growing up. I will miss the people I work with. I will miss being a call away from my friends and I will miss my favorite starbucks on Davis street by brenden theater. I don’t know If I am ready for this.
You know when your in a room full of people, but you still feel alone? Well being in an empty room isn’t much of a problem when you feel alone regardless of the amount of people in the room. I am not sure if that makes sense, but it did in my head.
Anyways. I am stressing out, I dont know if I packed enough stuff. I don’t know if I packed way too much stuff. I just don’t have enough boxes. I am freaking out. I don’t want to be alone, I just want to cry. I am being weird….
Is it weird that i just realized that this particular image has gotten over 20,000 notes. I think that is absolutely crazy. I didn’t even realized that it would get that big. It’s not mine of course I found it on the internet a while back. If there is an artist i would like to give credit to them, its an amazing picture regardless of some notes say its a false picture. Another popular picture was of a quote by jk rowling, which was rebloged by mugglenet themselves. i love muggle net. anyways bed time.